Eveyone lives in the different ways; and dies in different ways.
But that does not matter
The last one who survived, is desert only.
The real one who survived, is desert only.
I have sworn that I had been brain washed, then I should have not remembered anything took place last night, between 6 p.m. and 8 p.m. So the following secret lies with me. and that makes the blog unreveal forever.
Jack said he fell in love with me. He said he could not hide it anymore while we were walking outside the Vieshow movie theater, side by side. He was silient, and I asked him why, so all the things blurted out.
At that moment in the car, he held my hand, very nervous. And I gave him a very hard time. I told him not to waste time on me, and I told him that spooky story about Yi-Chiang. And he was very sad and disappointed. I was even more down then I appearred on my face then.
I saw it's coming, but I let myself sink in the happiness too long I could not help. I let it happen, because I wanna stay like this a little longer. it's too nice to have company like him. But it is all gonna end right now.
What makes me suffered is a feeling is fading, a relationship is fading. No response on message or msn. No calls anymore, no hangout and no more bullshit. What is lost is lost, there is no way to trace it back.
Do I regret to turn him down? no. But I feel very lost and I just wish my earth is rotating just as the way it was. I pray no change between us, or my life.
I found the the more a person grows up, the less he can afford to loss. I don't want to loss him. That is the little voice in my heart.
